Just My Rotten Luck

Just my rotten luck-

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I guess I'll just cry again
and wonder why again
THIS COULD EVEN HAPPEN
I guess I'll just lie again
pretend I'm fine again
BECAUSE I SWEAR I'M A-OKAY
I guess I'll just die again
screaming inside my head again
HOW DO I SHUT IT OUT?
WELL, I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU
EVEN THOUGH YOU FINALLY FLEW
WELL, JUST MY ROTTEN LUCK

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wanna blow my brains out
hope I get hit by a train now
but I'm okay though,
cause it's all alright,
not like I'm dying, without you by my side
and do you ever want to get out
of this world
like you wish you were dead and cold
and every night's a routine for me:
go home, wish you were here, and cry myself to sleep
but it's all okay because (aggressively:) I'M FINE, okay?
sorry, I'm just breaking down
it's hard now that you're not around
used to laugh so hard I might puke
now I only want to puke when my feelings are down
when I'm crying so hard it no longer makes a sound

(chorus)

wanna scream out loud
what do you think of me now?
it's really just fine though,
because I'm all alright, y'know?
and do you ever want to cry out?
cus your heart is going cold?
and the walls are closing in on you now?
and your whole life is a letdown?
and it's a routine:
go to school, wish you were here, and try not to weep
(running kinda low on sleep)
but it's all okay because (sobbing:) I'M FINE, okay?
sorry, I'm just really feeling it now
honestly, my head's in the clouds
it's kind of bizarre, kinda lost now that you're not around
I'm used to crying so hard I might puke
so it doesn't really matter, sorry I'm so down
but I wish I were dead, no longer making a sound!

(chorus)

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