Phoenix Drop: The Missing Guards

Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel I caused this to happen? It's not my fault!

"Lord Aphmau," Brian said
"Any leads?" I said
"We've been searching all day and night for three years, Lord Aphmau, they are GONE,"
"DON'T TALK LIKE THAT, BRIAN, WE WILL FIND THEM NO MATTER WHAT!" I said fiercely

It's been three years since the attack, the attack by Zane, our guards Garroth, Laurence, and Dante went missing that day. I never forgave or will forgive myself for that day...Just then I realized what I just said to Brian.

"I'm so sorry Brian it's just that...I just am worried, I should've NEVER put them out there, They might be DEAD because of ME!" I said sadly.
"I understand my Lord, it's been a hard time for all of us...I promise Aphmau we will find them," Brian said compassionately.
"Thank you, Brian, thank you for getting me through this!"
"No problem my Lord, I now will go on searching for the guards, now get some rest while I'm gone okay?"
"I will," I said and just like that he shut the door.