I Missed You Guys!

Hey, so I just wanted to give a little update on my life, maybe someone will read this maybe they won’t. Ppl probably don’t check my profile anymore because I obviously haven’t published anything since I left.
First off, quarantine has actually been good for me. I’ve had time to figure some stuff out. I can really, honestly say that I love myself. It took a lot of time. The things that helped me through the self-hate were God, music, ASL, my family’s dogs, my crush, a friend who stuck with me online during quarantine, writing in my diary, and spending some time outside. I’m still working on myself, on my confidence and self-improvement, but I’m doing so well.
I also discovered that I’m nonbinary, which means I mentally don’t have a gender. I think this comes from removing myself mentally from situations, instead of dealing with them, which sort of twisted reality and now I feel no gender. I love that part of my identity, and I can see all the puzzle pieces of my life and why I questioned my gender so much coming together. It’s just me now. I haven’t come out to my family, because they wouldn’t accept me, but that doesn’t make it any less valid. I’m not here to argue over my own self because there may be people on this site who would say that’s not right, but that’s just me, and I wanted to tell you.
We now have three dogs: Marbles, Rerun and Violet. Two of them (Rerun and Violet) are service dogs for my siblings with chronic pain, the other is an old family dog.
So how are you guys doing? I saw that TheQuizzyAddict wrote up an apology and a goodbye, I don’t need to know what happened if you guys don’t want to tell but is she ok, and did anyone else leave? Is there anything anyone can say to get her to come back? And TheQuizzyAddict if you're reading this I care. I really do care about you and I want to know if you’re safe. I might not be able to fix things but I could be there to talk if you need it. And it really doesn’t matter to me what you’ve done, I will forgive you.
Pls—feel free to tell me how you're doing, anyone at all. I won’t respond immediately but I will check this. If you're doing bad or good, just tell me how your day went.
Love you all,
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