Silent Goodbyes

I say all these silent goodbyes
And as the tears sting my eyes
I realize
That every one I meet
Is one more silent goodbye

Days, months, years
Knowing you
Six, seven, eight tears
Sliding for you

Three, three hundred, three thousand
Months, years, decades
By them
One thousand and
Three million days
Ten trillion ways
It could have gone

This is how we ended up
This is where we are now
And this is how
We ended up here
And I hid every tear
So you never knew

A few close calls
A few close moments
But one thing stalls
Everything
This is where I am now

I hid every tear
I hid everywhere
What I never was, was
Thoroughly transparent
So this is where I am now

And this is how
I ended up where
You don't see
All of me
None of you ever have
I've never been great
At being transparent
Even through all the hate

So this is why
I am here
This is the truth
I was afraid
This is why
This is the truth
And my
Final
Silent goodbye
Goodbye.