Sad poem

I wake up my hair is a mess
One thing I know is that I can't rest
An image of you appears in my mind it feels like a punch in the guts or being stabbed with a knife. Tears run down my face I know I am not a disgrace, But there is a pain in my heart just thinking of you makes me cry cry cry cry cry, I will say why why why why? Because you gave me pain, you gave me hurt, you were my friend but you left me in the dirt, why do I still long to be your friend once more? you weren't nice to me, you insulted me, you may even stole from me. But you are moving away in the spring, somewhere far away... You gave me pain, you gave me hurt, you were my friend but you left me in the dirt, But I will not back down you can't make me sad because I will not back down... All you do. It makes me mad. I gave you gifts and friendship secrets you gave me shit you gave me dirt, you gave me pain that really hurts. but I know you are going through some things in my life I decided to be your friend when I saw your mind cry for help, But you gave me pain, you gave me hurt, you where y friend but you left me in the dirt, you gave me shit, made fun of my style I think I am fine if you leave for a while because you were my friend and you left me in the dirt.