Just a Little Girl

You're just a little girl
too young to understand
why mommy is not in your life
You're just a little girl
too young to understand
why when you visited mommy
she yelled and hit you
and why didn't she stop?
didn't she see you were scared?
You're just a little girl
too young to understand
why you have to take medicine
and why you have to be sent away to someplace
for a while
You're just a little girl
too young to understand
why your stepmom hurts you, too, just like mommy did
and why neither can love you
like a mother should?
You're just a little girl
too young to understand
why the kids at school don't like your voice
and think you're weird
it's not like you had a choice

..

But now you're a teen
and you're old enough to understand
that your parents are divorced
Now you're a teen
and you're old enough to understand
that your mom is not a good person
and that's how come father took you away
Now you're a teen
and you're old enough to understand
you have something called Autism, and
back then you were too much for a father to handle
Now you're a teen
and you're old enough to understand
that sometimes mom gets mad
and she hurts you
but does that justify her actions?
Now you're a teen
and you're old enough to understand
nobody cares if you didn't have a choice
and all you want is to be normal
they will still put you down because they can't see that little girl

.

They cannot see that little girl
being thrown against the wall
head spinning, she can't feel the pain
and cannot remember how it felt
only how she got it
They cannot see that little girl
listening to mom and father argue about her
and they cannot see when she wonders why it's always her
They cannot see that little girl
being screamed at
getting things thrown at her
and she doesn't know what to do
And now that she's a teen
they still don't see her
they still make her cry in math class
or laugh when she says anything
And now that she's a teen
she's realized they don't see her
and decided it doesn't matter.