(I don't know yet)

Everything is broken
I can feel myself crack open
"Why does everyone want to hurt me?"
I can't stand these emotions

Everything is dull
The color faded away, it's been gone for so long
"Why am I so empty? Why can't I just feel something?"
I want to be a normal girl but everything just hurts

Everything is changing
I want it to go back to the way it was before it changes too much
"Why do we always have to do this?"
I just feel so damn foolish

Everything is collapsing
What happened to the way we used to be, the way I used to see?
"Why can't you understand me? I need help, can't you hear me asking?"
I want to give up on all these things

...

Everything is healing
I know it'll be okay
"Plenty of people love me"
My heart will fix itself with time

Everything is colorful and bright
I look forward to each and every night
"I value my life, and I don't want to die"
My smile doesn't have to be fake, I decide if it's that way

Everything is changing, but that is quite alright
Sometimes things will change, and that's just life
"Changing can be good too"
I just have to see the light and not the shadows that follow behind

Everything is just getting started
I have so much to do and see
"There are so many reasons to stay"
I don't want to give up, I see the joy life can bring.

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If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or tendencies, self-harm, or depression and feel like you can't take it anymore, please reach out for help!

If you don't feel comfortable telling someone like an adult you trust, talk to a close friend and ask them to help you...

Call the suicide hotline!

Please just seek help.

When you die, your pain does not go away, it just moves on to someone else.

Plenty of people love you, even if it feels like nobody does!

As I said, there are plenty of reasons to stay.

Don't give up! <3