Am I In Love With My Female Best Friend? (Girls Only)
So lately, you've started to have feelings for your female best friend, and they're new and kind of confusing to you. Don't worry, this is way more common than you might think. Here's a little test I created to tell you if you're in love with her. Take it and soon, you'll know!
I am really praying to God that you wont see this post. I am, the chances are very low but still, me the usual overthinker.
I am so confused. You make me feel so confused. Do I love you in a platonic way or in a romantic way? I really want to know what my feelings are. Is getting butterflies while hugging or staring at you normal? Is it normal to feel like i want you so bad to be mine? Is thinking about how cozy life would be with you normal? Is it normal for a friend to want to hold you, kiss you and have you?
I always think about you. You are so beautiful. Just like a Reinassance paiting. My reinanssance paiting. My sweeg coconut. You are so charming, you attract everyone around you. And that… kinda 🐤a bit. I dont want to be another fish in the sea for you. I may be too arrogant or possesive, but I dont want to be part of the many people that like you. I want to be the only one that likes you. But… do i like you? I really dont know.
Please, tell me. Do you see me more than a friend? Because Im scared I do. We always joke around about these things; how we are a couple, how we are married, you liking me, me flirting with you etc. You are joking, but am I too? Im not always joking, I think sometimes I really mean what im “joking”. Im kinda scared tho that for you, its really just a joke. A playful thingie between friends. You do that with so many people, joking about liking them or wanting them in a sexual way. So, that stops me from feeling special. If you do that with everyone, then it means Im no different. Right?
Just tell me, already. I dont know if its all in my head, but i always catch myself hoping that you may be feeling the same things as I. “I think she likes me.. Does she have a crush on me? What if she thinks she has a one sided crush on me…?” Stupid, right? I might say even pathetic. I many times catch myself daydreaming that maybe you like me but you dont wanna say it cause youre afraid of rejection.
When did I become like this? When did it all start? Im so 🐤 confused… why am I like this? I feel like im using you to make my life more interesting and I hate that. I also hate that im listening to Girl in Red while writing this. Your drama queen in action.
🐤 this, coconut, I think I like you. You make me feel things i wouldve never thought i would feel around girls. You make me question myself. See how special you are? You love me so much and you give me so much affection. You make me feel loved. You make me feel pretty. I feel like I could spend my whole life with you. I dont want you to be happy with someone else, i want you to be happy with me. I want you for myself and i want you to want me for yourself. I want you to see me as yours. Please, for the remaining time that we have left, dont fall in love with someone else. Please be mine for an year and a half, even if its platonic.
I dont know in which way, I do not care if its platonic or romantic, but I love you. As a friend or more, it does not matter. You are my dearest friend and nothing can change that.
Thank you for loving me and i hope the universe will give us more time. Maybe in another life, we couldve been more. But here, Ill be just your bestie. Its okay.
Sleep well, my baby.
With love and regrets,
Ananup
So I was putting chapstick on bc I have some mother-💑 dry lips all the time, and she was in the room, she looked at me and sniffing the air, she bluntly told me that she didn't like the smell of my chapstick, I acted sad (was in denial back there but was truly sad I think, because what she thought of me mattered, (matter, stop the denial girrrl)) I played around, still in denial, kinda faking sobs and all and she 💑 said ; "why does it matter anyway, it's not like I was going to kiss you'' And I stood there. I don't remember how I brushed it up so It shows how much I was panicking. Now I think I really started to question myself at that point. Should I change chapstick tho ? Oh no I'm just embarrassing myself at that point
I am kinda confused right now, I've thought a lot about the possibility that I might have a Crush on my friend, I think of her as one of my best friend, but it does not feel like how I feel about one of my other best friend ; I find the 2nd very cool and snarky, and like cute in some ways (when she talks about her crush she has that very cute smile, it makes me wanna rub her hair, and she is the epitome of cool, like she has muscles. If I had to fight for her, i would, even tho I would get demolished).
But the 1st one It feels a bit different, she is a bit lanky and I've never thought of her as magnificent, but she's def cute. She makes me kind of crave contact ? When we do sleepover, I wanna sleep next to her so bad... But never acted on it because I feel it would be weird and I don't want to be a creep.
She likes head massage and like I've done it a few times for her and no matter how greasy or full of dandruff my fingers would get, I didn't stop until I had to (mostly hand cramps). She's cool and I think about her not everyday but close (not in the same school).
When she got a Boyfriend, I didn't felt sad, just a bit jealous ? I am not sure about this one, when they broke up, I felt a bit happy I think.
When she texts me I immediately smile and I laugh a lot at her texts. But I don't think sexually of her, I've thought about the possibility of being ace tho, I'm not sure I would like to kiss her but cuddle would be great.
And it makes me wonder ; Am I a possessive friend, or just crushing over my friend ? ( For the end of the story, even tho she's bi she hasn't shown interest in me (at least I don't think so), but I know that even if she was interested she would never act on it, kinda like me.)
So having written all that, I'll give myself some time, and try to not ruin the friendship. It being a crush seems more like a probability that before I wrote all of that.
I am a bit worried she could find that text but hey, if she finds it on that particular quizz I might have a chance heh ?
anyways she always says she loves me and made me a whole romantic playlist and hugs me all the time and wants to cuddle and watch scary movies. we’re both bi lol. she’s so pretty with her green eyes and light brown hair. and i think one time she even tried to kiss me. we were in the bathroom at school and she was walking ahead of me and i said as joke ‘why’re you leaving me? you’re so mean’ and she turned back to me and put both of her hands on my face and said she would never be mean to me she loves me. but my anxiety kicked in and i panicked and just ran into the stall :/
idk what to do tho bc it seems like she doesn’t like me as much as she used to a few months ago. i used to be her lockscreen and now it’s some guys drawstrings over his thingy. i wanna tell her i have a crush on her but i’m scared. everyone tells me she has a crush on me and most ppl think we’re dating. we plan on being roommates together after high school and sleep in the same bed which seems pretty gay to me lol but i’m still not sure if she has a crush on me. i wanna be with her so bad
I hope we can both be happy, together or not
You will never ever see this. I know that now. I guess I always knew I'd never be able to tell you the truth.
We met when I was 5 and you were 6, and from that point on you were the only thing I ever thought about. As a kid I would get jealous of your other girl friends and wonder if you saw me as ugly compared to them. I would wonder if you actually meant what you said when you told me that we were sisters and that you loved me so much (as a friend) and ask myself why being sisters didn't seem like enough.
Now I wonder who you have a crush on since you've come out to me as bisexual. I wonder if you ever thought of me as more than a best friend/sister and if you ever lie awake at night thinking about me.
If you haven't guess it already, I've fallen head over heels for you.
If you know who is typing this message then I'm so sorry if it makes you uncomfortable, and if it does please forget you ever saw it. Please.
But...y'know if you ever...liked me back or something...just know that my feelings for you haven't changed in the lifetime it seems that we've known each other.
I will always love you with everything in me, if not as a lover than as a sister.
Stay gold, beautiful girl.
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