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Alone With My Thoughts

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This is a short story that I wrote that's partially based off my life right now. If you like it I can make a continuation.

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    Today. Yesterday. Tomorrow. Last week. Next week. Last month. Next month.
    My life.
    If you saw a glance of my life, you wouldn't think that I'm alone. I have five siblings, two parents, and at the moment my grandparents are here too.
    But look deeper--into me. I have thoughts... so many thoughts... sometimes they're uncontrollable and I'll be up until well past twelve A.M., too petrified of what my traitorous mind conjures to even get up to tell someone--anyone!
    Or I'll have said something that embarrassed me, or that I wish I'd never said or asked, and I would think about it for hours every day and well into the night... this terrible, horrible summer... oh, how I wish I could be young again! Such simplicity!
    First, second grade...
    Third, fourth, fifth grade!
    When thoughts wouldn't run away from me every night!
    When my friends were near!
    When I wasn't here!
    Oh, younger me...
    Would you have made other choices, had you known what was coming?
    Would you have tried becoming closer to your friends?
    Would you never have done what you did?
    Would you have told Ma and Pa about the thoughts?
    My family doesn't notice. Why would they? They're busy... sister with writing, brother with whatever he does when he's not around, other brother with playing Legos, Ma and Pa with searching for the perfect house.
    And all I am doing is thinking. Thinking strange thoughts, despairing thoughts, scared thoughts, lonely thoughts, crazy thoughts, angry thoughts, any negative thoughts that there can be, and books and writing have fun dry as distractions.
    Nobody notices. They care, but don't care to look deep--they don't pry into the depths of each other's hearts and minds, least of all mine.
    I am alone with my thoughts.

Comments (6)

autorenew

178 days ago
Okay so before the comments disappeared, I think I might have been too busy saying "it's partially fiction, mostly just based" to say thank you. So... thank you. 😊
389 days ago
Soo do you guys like part 1 or 2 better? Plz tell me!
403 days ago
Thx
404 days ago
👍
406 days ago
Oh, it is published
406 days ago
ALL THE COMMENTS ARE DISAPPEARING! Also, I wrote part 2 but I'm not sure if it's that good. It's not published yet